My name is Nicole. I’m 27 years old. I’m 5′1” tall. I weigh 242.4 pounds (as of this morning). I’m finally doing something about it.
I really didn’t experience weight problems until I was about 16 and went on the pill. That year I gained about 30 pounds. Even after I stopped taking the pill, my weight kept escalating slowly. I weighed 201 pounds when I got pregnant with each of my three children. After my youngest was born, I lost about 20 pounds (so down to 180) and then had an IUD inserted. In the next year and a half I gained 60 pounds. That was 2 years ago and thankfully I didn’t gain any more after that. Well, that was until I quit smoking 8 weeks ago. I want to be clear here: I am not blaming my weight on the birth control. Do I think it helped me? NO. However, I’m overweight because I like to sit on my couch and watch TV and most of all, I like to eat. I like to eat a lot. I’m not one of those women who takes care of everyone else besides myself and that’s why I’m fat. Um, no. I’m just lazy. It’s the truth and I can own it.
So before bed one night last week I discover that I’m up to 250. My husband and I joined a gym the same week I quit smoking, but I think we went a combined total of about four times in seven weeks. Yeah, go us! But when I saw 250 on the scale, something in me snapped. I mean, what’s the difference between 240 and 250 besides ten pounds?? I don’t know, but it hit a nerve so deep I wanted to throw the scale across the bathroom. Of course I didn’t because, afterall, what did the poor scale do to me?? Plus, my bathroom is pretty small and it probably would have ricocheted off the wall and smacked me in the head.
I wanted to start slowly, ya know, exercise a few times a week but not really change my eating habits yet. But then I started thinking, this is about so much more than me losing weight. I am teaching my children the wrong way to eat. Their diet consists of chicken nuggets, fish sticks, hotdogs, pb&j, mac-n-cheese, Spaghettios and chicken noodle soup for lunch. Well, I do make sure they get a veggie or a fruit every day. Yeah, ’cause that makes things better. Add that to the casseroles we make for dinner and they are going to be going through the same weight problems I am in 20 years. (Thankfully, they do not currently have weight issues.)
Now, I don’t want to give the wrong impression. I cannot simply take all of these things away from my children and replace them with Wheat Chex for cereal and spinach salad for dinner. I want to find the right balance between healthy food and normal kid food. How am I gonna do that?? I have NO clue. But that’s half the fun right?!
As for me, I’ve been to the gym the last three days in a row and completed one hour workouts. My goal is to burn 700 calories (accomplished!) and eat around 1500 calories a day. I’m not really going to count calories though. I’m just going to focus on changing our meals and snacks for the most part. Will I never ever ever have McDonald’s again? I can’t say that. I don’t want to. I am not on a diet. I am changing my life. Realistically, I have to say that I will have fast food again. What do I plan never to do?? Get a LARGE #1 Value Meal. It’s really just not necessary.
I stepped on the scale this morning and I am now down to 242.4 pounds. I wouldn’t say I have lost 7.6 pounds though because I weighed in at 250 at night and then 246.2 the next morning. I’m comfortable saying I’ve lost 4 pounds though this week. The biggest most exciting part though?! My ankles are not swollen for the first time in nearly 2 years. I haven’t worn shorts in forever, but I am fond of my capris. And let’s face it….cankles? I just couldn’t do it. I am so excited to wear capris again!
Here’s the deal. My 10 year high school reunion is on October 9th. My goal is to be down to 200 pounds by then. Of course lower would be even better but I’m trying to think in terms of reality. My goal weight is MUCH lower than this amount, but it’s somewhere to start.
Over the next week, I’ll still be eating a lot of crap because we already had our menu pre-planned. I’m doing my best to research different meal ideas and I have found so much great information on ChooseMyPlate.gov.
I want to say that this is hard for me. I’m incredibly embarrassed to put my weight on the internet. I’m half hoping no one ever reads this blog! I’m doing it because I need to have accountability. When I quit smoking, I created accountability. I told everyone I knew and I asked my dad and stepmom to watch the kids each week for the smoking cessation class I was taking (they live 45 minutes away). I don’t like to let people down so this was enough to get me to quit. For good. I need the same thing with my weight and our family’s lifestyle.
I do intend to post pictures also! I’ll be doing that in the next week.